I am in the final rotation of my last year and it is constantly tiring for me. Everybody says the medicine rotation is the most difficult and stressful but for it is fatigue which is getting to me. I constantly have to take a nap in the hospital library even after I have followed my morning rounds. You don't even want to know how long I nap for...
Along with depression I constantly feel angry, disappointed and despondent about the world around me. I know I shouldn't give the time of day to these emotions but part of the problem is due to my personality and my views on life. From an early age I had an idealistic view of the world. As human beings we have been blessed with opposable thumbs and a three digit IQ. I expect us to be able to solve the world problems easily and live in harmony. What is done instead is far from my idealistic view. Humans bicker over material wealth and ideologies, leading to the four horsemen of Apocalypse constantly tramping through the worlds. Humans destroy the planet in every known way and continue the devastation even with the knowledge that this destruction could lead to the annihilation of our planet.
I know I should know better to expect this. After all we are animals in the first place and we are just conforming to our genetic makeup - to survive and reproduce. Not everybody is intelligent or bothered enough to notice about the world problems and just want to survive. I should be more tolerant of other people's views considering I did grow up in a multi-ethnic society at school.
So why am I still pouring hot water over how crap Hong Kong television is or how immature my classmates are over psychiatric patients?